Restlessness
how much anna ? -100 rupeesa
क्या??
100 rupees for such a trivial thing?I thought it would hardly cost me 30. I sweared.
Quadruple difference..rough mental calculation flushed me that. I sweared again.
Is it the burgeoning economy?
Just the anna's machiavellianism?
Have I become obsolete?
Or infact a miser?
ढेरो प्रश्न अन-सुलझे से, पर उत्तर के तलाश में भटकने से डर लगता है। क्यूकि introspection hurts and cursing rejuvenates - I thought.

ऐसा मेरे साथ कोई पहली बार नहीं हुआ। अजी पैसे का क्या है - आज है, कल और होगा, परसों और ज्यादा । Human turn into insatiable devil when it comes to wealth.

So saving myself some Rs70 is not an issue here.
The concern is - queries enter and leave my mind unattended at lightening speed, with the subject usually getting a maa-behen tag to it if it dis-pleases me.

But I never halt, sit aside and try to resolve them. This is how I have always been since I learnt the difference between good & not-good, right & not-right. I conceive qustions of all kinds and keep pondering over them.

Cursing almost everything I find related. But never wanting to find the answer to those questions.

After all bad-mouthing is a bihari's forte!

But where is this eventually leading me to?

I met with an accident a couple of days back.

Post injuries to by motorbike, when I was with myself, checking out my bodily injuries, I realized - I was lost in thoughts of cursing the reckless government bus driver while the my eyes didnt notice another vehicle ahead.

I have to stop being a pressure cooker.

Atleast it has a whistle, unlike me.